Too much pain for smiles.

Today is a hard day for me. It's one of the hardest days I have to face...
Today a few years ago, in 2006, my Pappy passed away. It's a really hard thing for me, I've tried to push my attention to other places today, and it's really not working. Demi came over, and brought me a burger, and other friends did things to try and get my mind off of it and that is so great, and I am so thankful and stuff for them but the point is that I can't get it off my mind. I didn't wanna blog about it, I tried blogging earlier to keep happy but I just can't. Today is a depressing day for me. I still love my pappy and think of him every single day. It's so hard for me. I didn't want to release a date really that he died, but I just know that you guys love me,a nd I love you and you guys are such a wonderful support for me... it's just really hard. It gets really hard. And it's hard thinking that he's not here with me today. I try not to think about death, but it's so hard not to. When you know that that person is the only one who could help you with something, and then you remember that they're gone, and you won't see them again anytime soon. It's just weird, when you think about it and say to yourself, 'they're not gonna walk through that door tonight.' it's a hard thing. I try to avoid it as much as possible but it's still a hard thing.
It's hard when people ask you how to deal with things, and you don't even know yourself. I've had so many people ask, "how did you deal with the death of your pappy? My grandpa just died and I don't know what I'm doing." honestly, I don't know what I'm doing either. I try and take it day by day, I think about him everyday in a positive light, I don't think about the death, I think about the good things that happened, the memories, those things.

My pappy was always there for me, he supported everything that I ever wanted to do, and I wouldn't have done any of this without him. He was the one who never let me give up, and he inspired me in singing a lot, if he hadn't loved music so much I wouldn't have wanted to be a part of it. I am so thankful to him. And it makes me think, my pappy loved me and supported me so much, he did so much for me. So why can't complete strangers even just keep their mouths shut about what I wear? It's shocking. And I know that he's watching me, and I know that he's proud of me, for everything that I'm doing. Things happened the way they were suppose to... although I wish my pappy hadn't died from lung cancer, and it'd been more peaceful, I do believe it was his time. I know it was. And I was so depressed when he died, and things and I just held it in. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know which way to go, or what to do. I just stayed quiet, I just smiled and nodded, I never expressed it to anyone, I just kept going, kept going, kept going. And four months later I met the Jonas Brothers, and they made it so easy for me to just cry about it if I needed to, and to talk about it, and helped me write about it. My friends, family, they've all helped me, adn I've helped them to get through these few years and I know we will continue to because it is so hard on all of us. And will continue to be. But he is in a better place, watching us and helping my family. His life created so many oppurtunities for so many people, and even his death continued to help people. Once he'd passed, I created the Pappy Cyrus foundation, a charity and all kinds of thing under his name. His name will continue to live on in a charity, and in lives and everyone else, and especially through me.

I love my pappy, and I don't wanna say much more through respect for him, but I'll try to get out of this depression and this slump of this soon, because I know that he wants me happy, and I love being happy. So thank you everyone for all of your support, and I love you so much for everything you've done, and for supporting me and always making me smile. I love you guys so much.

I love and miss my Pappy, but I know that he's watching me and proud of me and that's what matters. I'll see him again one day.

"You used to call me your angel,
Said I was sent straight down from heaven,
You'd hold me close in your arms,
I love the way you felt so strong,

I never wanted you to leave,
I wanted you stay here holding me,

I miss you, I miss your smile,
And I still shed a tear, every once in a while,
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,
I miss you, I miss you,

You used to call me your dreamer,
And now I'm living out my dream,
Oh how I wish you could see,
Everything that's happening for me,

I'm thinking back on the past,
It's true that time is flying by too fast,

I miss you, I miss your smile,
And I still shed a tear, every once in a while,
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,
I miss you, I miss you,

I know you're in a better place,
But I wish that I could see your face,
I know you're where you need to be,
Even though it's not here with me,

I miss you, I miss your smile,
And I still shed a tear, every once in a while,
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,
I miss you, I miss you,

I miss you, I miss your smile,
And I still shed a tear, every once in a while,
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,
I miss you, I miss you."


I'm so happy he's not suffering anymore, having lung cancer is such a horrible thing to experience, I'm sure. And he was in a lot of pain too, so I'm so happy that he's resting now, and he's out of pain, and that's how I hopefully will continue to look at it until I see him again.
I miss you, and love you Pappy.

Love always,
Miley

I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY!

I know everyone is waiting for a big thing about Chile and Hawaii as well. Honestly, I don't know what to say. It's crazy that all of this is happening. I think it's all becoming clear what we are doing to this planet. We take it for granted, and act like it's nothing. We can do anything we want. Then eventually things like this start happening. This isn't fate, this isn't God, this is what we have done. What we've done is now killing people, and overall the planet as well. I feel very blessed that my family wasn't harmed in the activity, and I pray and am so happy that none of you were affected as well PHYSICALLY. But all in all, we were ALL affected. And we don't have this timed, the same thing could happen where we live tomorrow. A family friend of ours since my mom was little called our house yesterday. Well her mom did. the mom called my mom and said that her daughter (moms friend ) was in Japan where the tsunami was suppose to hit. That the daughter had called and told her to tell everyone if they didn't hear from her by 9 a.m. she loved us all very much. It was so traumatic, we were all in shock and we were all SO worried. We woke up this morning to find out the tsunami didn't hit, THANK GOD!!! My mom was so thankful and we all are. Now we are praying that she gets a flight home, and can make it home very safetly and unharmed. Haiti, Chile, Hawaii, and other places where these natural disasters have taken place, and/or WILL take place need our prayers. And our HELP. So be involved, make sure to do anything you can to help! I will be too. I've told everyone for months LET'S HELP THE PLANET, let's DO THINGS, and it never happened. Maybe now things will! We can all pitch in and try to help the PLANET. Not just OURSELVES.
My prayers and my heart go out to everyone affected by the earthquakes and tsunamis.
THIS WAS OUR REALITY CHECK. Get it?! Start GETTING INVOLVED!!!

A lot of people have been starting a lot about Nick J & myself. We are best friends guys! We enjoy being best friends and love it very much. We both love where we are and who we are with, and we enjoy eachothers company as well. We've been writing a lot lately, we've been hanging out quite a bit and that's rad, we've loved it. Don't get into it so much that you guys start assuming things, or even TRYING to figure out what's going on. We're close. That's my answer. We are very close and we're best friends. It's awesome being in the same town as your best friend once in a while, and being able to see eachother. And also everyone has been asking why I haven't been "talking about Liam," that's becasue I love having my personal life to myself some. I love you guys more than anything, and you DO know me, you know me, trust me. But there's just little things I like to keep to myself, for me. =]
It's so awesome having Nick, Demi, and Liam all in the same town for once. All at home, all able to hang out. It's so great, and I've enjoyed it so much and am SO thankful! But don't look into it all too much guys, we all love eachother very much!

About my boyfriend, like I mentioned in past blogs, I believe that you should feel appreciated! Women should be treated like princesses, and if you aren't, they're not worth it! And lately I truly have been. My boyfriend has cooked me dinner so much the past week, we've been taking long walks, and drives, and just laying down talking for hours and hours. It's been so amazing. We've truly cherished eachother and how much we love eachother, and that's just the best. because I truly do. And he is just the most amazing boy ever, and I've just had so much fun. I am so thankful, so blessed, so excited for the future. It's been amazing! I am so... HAPPY.

KCA! PLEASE vote for KCA guys! KCA is a huge thing for me because it is ALL you! It isn't critics, and all of that stuff that determines things like Oscars, and Grammys, this is so important to me because it is all you! I do everything I do for you guys, and I love doing it fo ryou guys! I'd rather have a KCA anyday than a Grammy because it's ALL. YOU. Would I appreciate a grammy? Ahem. Duh. Ha! But seriously, the KCA's and the TCA's, it's all YOU GUYS and that's what's most important to me because I know that I'm doing SOMETHING right. And I'm really working hard for oyu guys, and that I'm doing ENOUGH. This year might be my last year in a couple category's because Hannah IS ending by next KCA. So this is a very critical and important year for me in this award thing, and all of that, BLAH BLAH BLAH! I don't like using this for marketing at all, that's NOT what I'm trying to do, and I hope ya'll know that! I've just been thinking about KCA and wanted to share what I thought about it. it's not just "another award," AT ALL, it's saying that I am doing good TO you guys!! And that's what I'm working to do! You can vote as much as you want, there isn't a limit, so PLEASE check it out when/if you can and vote AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE! So check out the link below and guys PLEASE vote. Please pelase PLEASE vote, it means SO much to me so PLEASE vote!!
http://www.nick.com/kids-choice-awards
PLEASE vote!!!

What other news do I have.. hmm.. Hannah is doing great! The record is doing awesome! Life is good, life is good, life is good..
I guess that's it, I hope your all doing awesome, loving life, loving God, loving everything going on! Remember to pray for Haiti, they're not cured yet, it's still doing bad so WE STLL NEED TO PRAY FOR THEM! Haiti, Chile, Hawaii, Japan, everywhere that's being affected by these huge natural disasters. TAKE CARE OF OUR PLANET YA'LL!!

I love you so much, God bless you all, and keep praying!
Remember to check out "Nothing to Lose" by myself and Bret Michaels. It's his song but it's amazing and I am so happy and proud to have been a part of it, hopefully we can do some awesome stuff with that song later in the year! I'm so excited! Xox.

Love always,
Miley

P.S. I can't wait for October <3

My mom and I have heard on multiple occasions that someone who looked just like her was showing up at the same places we were showing up! It was creepy at first, and we heard it several places. Today at lunch, my mom picked me up to take me to get lunch for the cast at HM. We got to where we were going, and the lady to help us rushed outside and yelled, "she's here at the same time you are!" we walked over the a white SUV and turns out, there was a woman in it that DOES look JUST like my mama! It's insane! We were all in shock. They'd heard about eachother in so many places and we finally met her. It was so cool. They say you have a twin somewhere. Today we met my moms! And she's so pretty like my mom. I wonder where mine is! :)

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Hello everyone. I am in a glorious mood! I was making plans for tonight, after the hm set and the studio, and got invited to go dancing, and clubbing, and out with a bunch of friends that were doing that. I said no, and made plans for my boyfriend and myself to hang out at the house, lay around in sweats, eat pizza, play games, watch tv and movies. Just hang out. My knight in shining armor! The shiney armor being pajamas and pizza stains. Duh! He was so happy about it, and that made me smile. Girls if yall can't hang out with your boyfriend in sweats and no make-up, he isn't good enough for u! And if your looking for a serious relationship. TRY IT. If he doesn't say u are most beautiful without make-up (which u ARE) then it shouldn't work for u! Don't settle for anything less than the best! I hope u are all having a blessed day.
God bless, I love yall! Xo

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Thinking of you. 6 days... I miss you.

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I hate being sick yall. It's been kinda stormy here, and somehow in the mixture I caught a cold. In bed, bright red nose, sneezing, coughing, sniffles, groaning, poutiness, THE WORKS. My mommy made me hot chocolate and it tastes like dirt. Moral of the story is: I hate being sick! Pray for me xoxox

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Laying out by the pool it's 10pm and it's so peaceful, no lights except for the pool lights under water, tiki torches and the moonlight, and of course that annoying LA light that always seems to be there even if it's not. Drinking juice from a cup with a lil umbrella in it :) it is so cute. I am really missing Franklin tonight. I love u all xo

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Hey guys! Life is so good. I hope it is going amazing for you all as well, today has been very relaxing. I woke up at about 9am and sat around in my pajamas drinking coffee, I laid in a hammock for about an hour with my boyfriend just talking, then I went to work. I went out for a really nice lunch with Mammie and came home early. Took a nap and watched some movies. I've been laying around all day. It's been a blessing. God bless!
I love u xoxo

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It's only 4:30pm and I am having to leave work to go get food because I have been really bad about it. Yesterday I didn't eat because I was too busy and forgot to. Then today I didn't eat until I was stone white and my daddy made me eat week old potatoes from KFC!! It was disgusting. But I am thankful he had it because I soon figured out I had been starving. I haven't eaten since and am already getting the shakes! So I am sitting waiting on my food because I am really hungry. Lesson of the day: EAT! no matter what the reason you haven't been... EAT!!!!!!

Your beautiful! Xox

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Hey guys! My day has been amazing! Started with a meeting between me and my manager and some awesome people who gave me some rad news about a few things. We got the release date for HM4 to start, got the date I'm starting to work on mixing my fragrance! Yes, I am going to make a "Miley scent"! I am working with such an inspiring woman on it. It won't be a line, just one fragrance and that's it. Super excited for that! I got some news for The Last Song world premiers, and we got a range of dates to choose from for the record! So we got our calenders made up and all I can say is BE READY cause it's all gonna happen fast! I'm stuck in traffic right now. Dang LA drivers! And pray for my puppy Rodeo (AKA "Roadie") he has been coughing a lot. Today has been so great!

God bless you guys!
Xox. MC<3

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I told everyone in a mileyworld blog, and wanted to say it again - I haven't given up hybrids! Yesterday I picked up my new suv, it's so cute and has more space. I needed more space. Not just because Mate is getting bigger but also because having a tiny car in LA is just scary! I love my new car. It is hybrid, super safe, a beautiful color, perfect size, it's rad! Mercedes released a new hybrid suv and that's what I have. I really recommend it, I love it! I hope everyone is having such an awesome Valentines Day! What am I doing? Working. Duh. I'm so boring. But it's making music for you guys and I love that and making yall happy. Have a blessed day! =)

Be safe on the road, especially the ones I am driving, hehe. Xox.

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NICK JONAS & THE ADMINISTRATION!

Before you read any further - I forgot to put this in my last post. I had it in a 'sticky note' on my desktop too, I knew to write it, I didn't "forget", I was being talked too and I clicked 'post' before I typed about it. But there is a blog before this I typed at the same time. So, go read that one too!
"Who I Am" sold over 80,000 copies!!!! I am so excited for Nicky, I know he has put his heart and soul into this, and he loves this music, HIS music. I've been listening to the record nonstop because it is just that beautiful. That is him speaking, with music. He has always been so musically active. Music before almost anything. I believe there is music in his blood. Trust me, if you guys saw a lot of his baby videos and stuff, he always had an instrument. Or had some kind of music playing. He's just a musical person. More than anyone I've ever met. You take this legends... or these people that LOVE music, that LIVE for music, for the music in the WORLD, and Nick doubles that in his love, passion, and life in music. He doubles anyone you could ever imagine loving music more than anything. And he deserves everything and MORE that he is getting now. So let's continue to spread the word about Nick Jonas & the Administration. Buy their songs on iTunes, tell everyone to do it, buy their record, buy everything. When the posters start getting made - GET THOSE. When the DVD's start releasing - GET THOSE. Buy like 902438509345 copies of the record, you get the point. This will be LEGEND of our future! When we're older, talking to our grand kids, they'll ask us if we can get them an old Nick Jonas & The Administration record, the FIRST ONE, and it'll be SO sold out, and people will be buying SO MANY, some of us won't have them if we haven't gotten them already. So do it for your GREAT GREAT GREAT GRANDKIDS!!! Do it for your CHILDREN, that you'll have like 20 years from now! GO. GET. THE. RECORD.
It's WORTH IT. It honestly is, it's beautiful, and loving, and inspirational, and meaningful, and TRUTH, and everything you WANT in music. And then the fact that the person who made it, who created it, who DREAMED about it, LIVES for music like NIck does is just a bonus! You can tell how much he loves music THROUGH the music. So do it for the LOVE OF MUSIC. Because apparently MUSIC LOVES HIM or he wouldn't have as much AMAZING talent as he does! And hello, he's hot too. Big bonus ladies! ;) got an amazing boyfriend who isn't all that great looking? Da da da da! Yay! Now you have a hot guy on your iTunes and your boyfriend will never know how truly offended he should be!!! =]
So everyone keep buying! It's amazing, and I LOVE the record and so does EVERYONE I know.

Have YOU bought NICK JONAS & THE ADMINISTRATION'S first album yet?!

Do it for our FUTURE. Our ENVIROMENT. Because our enviroment is better with people who participate. They participate if they're happy. They're HAPPY because of Nick Jonas & The Administration. So guys, get the record for your parents, your grandparents, your siblings, your children, your friends, your neighbors, your local shoppers at whatever convinient store you may be in in the naer future, your co-workers, your fellow peers at school, your waitors and/or those who take orders at fast food places, buy them for your pets. It'd be better than the snuggie for pets.

GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yayyyy Nicky!!!

About my break, and about my happiness.

So my break has been amazing, and yes, it is still going on. I've enjoyed it so much. Enjoying life, enjoying the people I'm with, enjoying what I've been doing. Life has been so great. I just wanted to let everyone know that. And if there has been anyone that has helped me throughout this break, considering that YES it is hard to stay away from updating you guys - especially with the LAME rumors that go around everyday, is Nick! He's been so great. He deleted some things to stop looking at online things this week too, and we've been visiting a lot and we've talked about it a few times but it's just not a huge thing anymore. Everyone is just so happy with life right now and I am so happy about it. Maybe it's the time of year! But it is just so amazing, and I am so happy, and I hope everyone else is as well!
I was always kinda worried about what I said on the internet because there is a level of personal space I want to keep to myself. And I'd keep running my mouth about that place I had for myself! But that won't happen anymore. This time has made me realize what is important in life. And I hope some of ya'll realize it too VERY. SOON. =]

I haven't been so happy in a long time, and I am just so happy and loving my life. But I just wanted to update you guys, remind you that I am doing well, I am very happy, and that I will continue this break because it is healthy, I am happy not having so much controversy. I say something and people continue to try and pick it apart. Everyone does it, and that's okay. I am the one who feeds the info to judge. And I am stopping that. that is what I'm doing now, is learning to do that. Not only for me, but for you guys too. Because I hate that some sit around and base a lot of their time waiting on me to say something so they can ponder on that all day. And no, I am not feeding my ego or trying to sound bigger than I am, I have been told through twitter that that is what people do, and I have seen some very sad cases of people who live for that. And guys, it isn't a good thing. At least be productive. But I love you, and I don't mean to stop loving me, because I love you too much to lose ya! <3

About the Super Bowl - I'm not a HUGE sports fan, but I love the Giants. They are my favorite team, I watch their games. I love them. As for anyone else, no offense to ANYBODY, I'm just not a sports person. But it was a very moving day for me, had a lot go on that day, had some moments that were amazing, and experiences that I'll never forget. And of course The Saints won. My mom was really angry because she was all for the Colts, and so is my dad so he was too. But my boyfriend was going for The Saints, and HE bought the pizza, so I was like "I'll pay you back by voting with you!" so YAYYY!! And "The Who" was INCREDIBLE. Anyway! Good job on the superbowl, it was pretttyyyy cool. =]

I don't really know what else to do with thsi blog, I just wanted to say that life is GOOD guys. LIFE. IS. GOOD. I can't stop smiling, I haven't for days, it's been amazing. Love is amazing.
I don't know what else to say because life is too good, and talking about it would just make it something that wasn't as special as it is. So I'm very happy with my personal life, and I'm getting dates to go out of the country and see some of ya'll soon. Hannah is doing amazing, the new record is rockin', ya'll will LOVE IT. It's sounding SO great. My little brother got a new dog too!!!!!!!! Which is amazing, he got it from an abused animal clinic and it's just the CUTEST little shakey dog ever. Anyway.

I was watching tv just now, and I am talking to somebody so I can't really focus. Basically, the break will continue, I am enjoying it and I hope you all are enjoying me SHUTTING UP FOR ONCE too! =] Ha! Life is good. Life is soo sooooooo SOOOOO good!

I love you all so much! You're so amazing and thank you for everything, and putting up with me. I know I've been so mixed up in the past, but I am finally on the ground. I am happy, stable, and ready to take the world by storm! I can't wait to make everyone go crazy! Bad crazy, good crazy, it's still crazy! There won't be a person on this earth that doesn't know my name when I'm done!=] I'm determined.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! Xoxoxo,
Miley

P.S. I'm still addicted to the same colored eyes I always have been. It won't ever change.

BACK TO MY BREAK!! YIPEE!! =]

Hey guys, having a rad day on set today! It's "on location" woohoooo! We've been on location for a few days, shooting some horse riding scenes with Emily, AKA "horse riding barbie"! I went to dinner last night with my two besties, Demi and Liam! We had a great time. One of the best dinners I've had this year so far! :) it's been a great time, I got to bond so much with them, it was lovely. Sadly, photographers did find us, and they did follow us. We were ok though, we still enjoyed it! It's awesome, spending time with my best friend and my boyfriend. We are hoping to do that so much more often! We understand eachother, we don't backstab eachother, and it's so easy to get hurt. But we are so close that we go to eachother for everything. It's nice knowing you have those people to go to. And Demi and Liam are super close too, which is the best feeling in the world to me! It is the best feeling in the entire world. I am so happy with life! I hope you are too! smile, because you're beautiful xo :) :)
God bless,
Miley

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