Wednesday, March 31, 2010

What happened?

So The Last Song released tonight in theaters. I've been anticipating it for months and months even before we filmed and it's been the most exciting thing I've done. I don't really know how to react now because I've truly brought myself down about it. I made the mistake of reading stupid gossip sites that had negative reviews before I read my fans support on it from mileyworld and those places that matter. Well originally my boyfriend text me and was like, "Hey, don't pay attention to this site because it's all untrue." and I was like "Well what site is it?!" and I found it unfortunately and read it and I bummed myself out about it. I don't get why so many good reviews get ignored but the horrible ones are the most popular. Why be so negative? Seriously how would you have to be raised to enjoy watching people trash someone else? I understand a lot of bad reviews was because I'm disliked by a lot of people I'm " Hannah Montana" and no one expects me to do well so they just go ahead and pick it apart. Or they compare the movie to my previous outlets & the story itself to others. This was different for me and scared me today because this is not MY movie. This isn't Hannah Montana, this isn't a Miley Cyrus concert film this is a NICHOLAS SPARKS movie, and I was just there to paint a picture for him and to be this character. It's not a Miley Cyrus movie starring Miley Cyrus, it's a Nicholas Sparks movie featuring Miley Cyrus. It's very different on a huge scale. I was trying to do the story justice. It's such a huge thing for me and of course I've never been in a serious film either wher I wasn't "Miley". Miley Stewart is very different from myself but it's still Miley, there's that sense of security because it's so easy now. This was Ronnie Miller. I was trying to give her justice. It's all very complicated. I hate reviews because when Nick was writing this he wasn't saying, "Okay. This is the next Notebook I have to do the same things." or anything like that, yet people take the Notebook and A Walk To Remember and try and compare and they see it negatively because maybe to them it ISN'T as great of a movie. But the story is its OWN story. It should be judged that way. Dear John... I don't get why that is such a big thing either. Everyone even on that set has been competitive about this whole thing ebcause it's two of Nick's films coming out. I think we should be more united, it is not MY movie, it's not CHANNING's movie, it's not AMANDA's movie. It's NICHOLAS SPARKS'. We shouldn't be doing anything to say " My movie was better!!!" they're both amazing story lines on different levels with two seperate stories. It's not the same story, we shouldn't be competing or talking negatively about eachother. I've done nothing but wish the best of luck to Dear John and it looks beautiful to me. I never went on about Amanda's voice or anything like that it isn't ABOUT that and it's so sad that people take advantage of NICHOLAS' story like that just to pick on me especially when they are an influence on others. Otherpeople will see Channing and Amanda saying things abuot me, THEIR FANS will see that and say, "They're competing! I'm their fan I won't see THe Last Song cause it has Miley!" the movie had nothing to do with 'Miley Cyrus' it's about family, and Nicholas, and romance, not about me and it's so sad that people use it that way. And miss out on a beautiful story because they're judging.

I've just truly bummed myself out because this movie was suppose to be my dream come true. And it is. But because for a split second I was bored and decided to read a review I am bummed out. Everyone will say "It doesn't matter what they say Miley, it was amazing!!" and try to make me smile and that's awesome but the point isn't that. I'm just not as excited as I'd thought I'd be so I learned my lesson. I'm kinda in a bad mood anyway so hopefully it'll slip away and I'll feel better later and be as excited as I should be because I have the best fans in the world and they deserve to feel appreciation for supporting this movie & trust me I AM so thankful and SO surereal and insanely happy for the positive feedback on it, I just don't get why people are so rude.

Jealousy is an illness, get well soon.

Thank you everyone who checked out or will check out Last Song, remember that "Opening" is very important, the first few days for the box office and stuff so check it out ASAP if your going to but seeing it at all is absolutely amazing. Thank you so much for making my dream come true if it wasn't for ya'll I wouldn't have been able to do any of this I am so so happy and thank you and love you with all of my heart.

God bless,

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I had a great weekend and beginning of the week. I spent Sunday night with my mammie, boyfriend, noah, ems, and the most precious baby 3 year old girl ever. My aunt came over later that night when everyone was in bed. My mama dyed her hair a little more blonde the other day and now her and my aunt look SO alike! They are so gorgeous. We all got to hang out and watch "who is clark rockefeller" on lifetime, it was such a good movie. I got to watch it again last night. We brought chinese home and just got to chill. Yesterday me and liam and some more of the cast did some press. I did an interview and "press sesh" alone after which is sooo weird, then I went to set. Today I'm on set, doing press and possibly some record work. crazy but BLESSED schedule :) just gotta keep my cool w/ these friggen photographers! Went to the park @ the end of t day w/ boyfriend and noah too. Great last few days!!! God bless. Xo!

Monday, March 8, 2010

Positivity Over Negativity

It makes no sense to me how people can take someone physically and just tear them down, and tear them apart. I am faced everyday with new challenges, and I know everyday that I have so many people out there waiting for me to fall. What gets me through the day is knowing that there are so many more that want me to smile, including myself.
It is a hard struggle though, having confidence. Maybe a little harder than expected. I have been known for my confidence for a long time. I love myself, I love my body, I love who I am and what I intend to be. But at the end of the day I will always be 17 years old, I will always be a human. As surprising as that may seem to some/most.

I lost my train of thought trying to redo this entire blog a little less depressing, because I am not the same girl I was when I first made this. And I am so happy for that, and thankful to the LORD that I have changed. When I made this blog I was very caught. I was very confused and I was very stuck in my life. I didn't know who I was suppose to be, who I wanted to end up being, who I was in general. And I was really stuck in that, and trying to get happiness from things that weren't within myself. And that was where I messed up. As I've said many many times before, I grew up in Tybee Island. I went and I was depressed, and in the middle of so much going on in my life, and I was hurting and I wanted out of Hollywood and I wanted to learn and experience new things and I did. I met people there on a normal level, like any other kid would meet their friends. I met so many people that are so close to my heart, and I bonded with some old friends that made us closer than ever. I grew up in Tybee Island, in many ways. And when I left I knew I would be happy.
I entered Georgia a very afraid, very confused, very stubborn, very lost, very broken, very hopeless and depressed girl. I left Georgia proud of myself, and loving myself, and full of happiness, and knowing who I was from that experience. I learned to not care who I was before then, and focus on right now. And that was something I truly needed to do.

At the end of the day, I know who I am. I have a new confidence and I have grown. I have always had to grow fast, but Tybee really changed me as a person, as a whole, and I love who I became. And the people around me see how happy I am now. I have never been so happy in my life. I am working so hard in everything that I include myself in. Everything that I participate in gets 110$%. I am so happy in my life right now. Although I am leaving some things behind, I know that more doors are opening. I know that my best friends have my back, I know that my boyfriend will hold my hand through everything, and I know that my family MOST importantly would never leave my side under any circumstances. I will be okay. The point of this entire blog was to really talk about these " haters", these people who sit around at their computers and do nothing but find flaws and tear me down, make fun of me, insult me, and try to intentionally crush me with their words. The LORD made my body the way he made my body. If anything, I would've even mind someone picking on my acting, or my singing, but not on the glorious temple that GOD gave me.

I am surrounded by the most beautiful and sweet people on the planet. Literally. From everything to this blog, to my everyday life and family. And yes, although hearing that someone considers me beautiful is so endearing and so sweet, and it warms my heart... I am still a human at the end of the day. I sometimes wonder if they wake up in the mornings ready and willing to just hurt people about their physical appearance. It hurts my heart that people intentionally want to hurt me and that throughout all of these years, and everything that I've done, I am still faced with the same bullies and demons that I faced when I was young and in school. It is disgusting. People think because they are behind a computer screen they can say whatever they'd like to, and not pay the consequences. And that is very true. And that is very sad. I wish there was more we could do, but unfortunately there isn't. Why cyber-bullying, gossip sites, etc are not something that is taken seriously. No matter what wrongs I have done, what mistakes I have made, I am still a 17 year old girl. I do not deserve to hear people screaming at me that I am a whore to impress their friends while I'm just walking down the street. And that is no uncommon example. I have that happen at least once a day. I don't remember a day that has gone by ( aside from being in Georgia. it is so peaceful there...) that it hasn't happened.

It hurts knowing that myself, and even other people my age have to go through this. Most of my memories are infront of cameras. I hate that I cannot spend a day with my boyfriend without cameras in our faces, and people trying to push us and shove us. A few days ago I was riding my bike to Jamba and when I came out and tried to ride my bike back home, one of the paparazzi tried their hardest to shove me off of my bike on multiple occasions. There should be some laws, something that gives them limits! It is not right at all how people are treated by these " photographers"! It's a disgusting job. There are other ways of keeping food on the table. These are 30-50 year old men! And they follow, yell, push and scream at you. Not all are violent, why they are like this with me is completely beyond me. I have seen paparazzi follow my other friends, for a few examples, Demi Lovato, Nick Jonas, and I have never seen anything violent happen. I sometimes wonder what I did to deserve the negatives of it all, but I do know that it is all worth it. I love what I do, I love acting and my passions, and I wouldn't give it up for the world. Making people smile is my goal in everything that I do. Making myself happy, and others smile is a beautiful accomplishment that I am so happy to be able to do everyday.

Tonight I read an article of someone talking about my dress at The Oscars. Saying that it was age-inappropriate, unflattering, and unfitting. As far as I'm concerned it fit pretty dang well. I need everyone to understand this is the hardest transition time for me. I am breaking apart from Hannah, I am leaving my pop genre music, a very serious movie is coming out, and I have become more edgy. I will be 18 this year. I have to find a way to not only bring the young, fun and rocker side into things, but also the mature and classy to help everyone endure and accept my transition healthily. I honestly expected worse than what this article said but it said some very mean things about me in general, physically. Yes, I do slouch. I am very open about it, I've spoken about it many times. I can help it, yes, but I don't know one person my age, or even older that does not slouch. People have this high expectation on me to be perfect and that will never happen, it's impossible. The dress was originally a wedding gown, and a GORGEOUS one. I was very pelased with everything about the dress and the look. I loved the message it sent as well. It was very glamerous, but also very sexy and also classy - in my own opinion. That is what I was aiming for and I, personally, saw that in it and wasvery pleased. No one can take that from me, including this article or any other.

I just wanted to vent about it, and let everyone know that no matter how " confident" I may be, all of us have a breaking point. And I have reached it. It hurts that people can truly sit and just hate me, and make fun of me, for things that God gave me. I work so hard, and I try so hard to be happy and make others happy. I am enjoying my life and living it freely. Why would someone want to take that away from me? What posesses people to want to hurt, and want to watch me fall. It is beyond me! But I am done with all of this negativity. I am ready to grow from it and move on. I will admit that it did bring down my confidence a lot, not because they offended me but because they tried to say that I was created wrong. That God messed up with me. And that can hurt anyone.

Anyway, I am very happy with my life, and I am so blessed and aware that I am as blessed as I am. I try to take things for granted as least as possible, and I think I have learned how to truly appreciate things the way I should. I have the best of friends around me that support me through every decision, I am so in love with the most amazing man that anyone could ever hope to meet or even just catch a glimpse of. the LORD sent me an angel. In boy form... remind me to thank the big guy upstairs for that one ;) hehe. But he is truly my angel, and he saved me, and I am just so happy and he makes me so happy and I am just loving my life. I love everyone in it, and I hope that these next few months play out as I am praying that they will. I am excited to start travelling, and I am loving being on set, and also working on my last ( VERY) pop record. I am enjoying every moment of my life to the fullest that I can, and I am so thankful I have people there to catch me when they aren't as enjoyable.

Thank you all for listening to my rant, I can't wait to see what the future holds.

Love always,

Sunday, March 7, 2010

just looked up to c I am still awake @ 4:45 a.m. let me tell ya it's not the most thrilling feeling. Even worse when u know u have to be somewhere important that day. I don't consider the Oscars important though - I consider them HISTORIC! I am soo blessed to be able to attend! I lovveee being around all of the uh-mazing artists! It is SO inspirational! It is so dark in my room, but I feel Mate @ my feet. I think he is the only thing keeping me same right now grr! Not only am I 1. Tired 2. Nervous about my lack of sleep to present tonight AND look glam 3. My attitude on the day with no sleeppp but also because I miss someone verryy much! I am heading to ny real soon for promotion for the movie! I am soo excccitteddd!! I really hope u all go c the movie it is getting soo close to coming out. This month is going to be craazyy! I am doing Hannah a few more days then taking a short break and going 2 ny for promotion then heading back and going straight to premiering! The world premieres will be insane cuz they ALWAYS r duh, but I cannnnot wait to get to some rad places! It is now 4:53 and something tells me I should try to sleep before the sun comes up hehe ;) and my favvoritteee show is on! Yipee! :) i am ready for a crazy schedule of traveling again! I haven't had this since the hm movie and it is soo exciitinngg! I might be too excited to sleep! ahhhhh!! :) thank u for reading my rant... I can't wait for movie promotion! The LORD is good xo!!

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Friday, March 5, 2010

Hey guys! Today has been so slow! I went to set early, and we had what I guess would be referred to as a "half day". I went home SO bored! Me and Liam were sitting around playing with the birdies and decided to go bike riding. It was SO relaxing, but we got followed by photographers. It was so lame. Today all together has been slow but relaxing. Going out with some friends now and then to dinner! I love you guys xox

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