Reading my bible this morning before the day starts! I won't lie, it's been too long since I've even prayed. Remember guys, the LORD is patient for you. He deff has been for me, lately... A lot more than he should have been. We all have doubts. We all are tested. We don't pass every test! God bless you all xo

Had a wonderful night tonight with my friends Liam and his brother Chris and Scott! We all spent a lot of time together and it was great. We went to see Sherlock Holmes - UH-MAZING!!! Seriously go see that movie. It's such a thriller. That movie is so amazing. Anyway, went back to Liams apt w him and Scott, and we just chilled and had a really spectacular time. :) xoxoxo

So I am DEFF back in hollyweird. As we speak, I'm out in warm SUMMER air... In January! In a way I'm happy to be back. My friends haven't seen the changes I've made since Georgia. I can't wait to spend time with Manderz, and Demi and everyone. It'll be great. It's crazy seeing my house after what seems like so long! I haven't felt like this was home since June. So it's like a brand new house. I'm looking at clothes saying, "did I really wear that?" records saying, "did I really listen to that?" I feel like it's been years! Anyway, I'm really hungry so I'm gonna try and convince someone to go to sushi, in-n-out, Mickey D's or something with me! I have redecorating to do another day and that'll be fun! Love you all! Blessings!

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Ok, so I was just informed that throughout my "vacation" paparazzi were following almost the entire time! We knew a few times, but it's sad to know they apparently hid and took pictures too. That is such a disugsting job. I just switched flights somewhere and am now on my last, quick flight to LA!!! :) pray for my flight, and I can't wait to get back to hollyweird, and see my friends. Can't wait! I love you all! You're so beautiful, God bless!! :) :)
Xoxo

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To my beautiful fans, I completely forgot to thank you all so much for getting me even nominated in the Peoples Choice Awards! My fans are the greatest, your so close to my heart and it's such an overwhelming feeling of support knowing yall have gotten me as far as I am. I fly off the handle sometimes, it's hard dealing with the rumors. But you all are always here for me, and you are the reason I am still here today! It's ALL FOR YOU! Thank you so much for the nomination not only of THIS award, but of previous awards won or lost. You all are the greatest and I am so thankful and thank God for you all every single day. You are so awesome! I can't wait for the PCA! :) thank you all so so much, I am so excited for what's coming up this year, and cannot wait to share it with you all. My truest fans. You're in my prayers! God bless you all, thank you for the nominations and so much more! I love you all so much!!
Xoxo,
MC<3

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O.M.G.

I have some news but I have some venting to do too! I am so mad at some of these STUPID gossip sites. I haven't looked at gossip sites in days, since I've been on "vacation" I had like a week long vacation or whatever and it's been the BEST, I've LOVED it, it's been the best time of my entire life but people will not leave me alone! I was finally in a plaec that was so peaceful, so serene and so blissful. Who shows up?! Paparazzi! What is up with that?! I can't even live my life the way I want to because they're ALWAYS in my face.

For those saying, "she looks happier than ever!" THANK YOU. Because I am. But of course there have to be those ignorant little kids out there that freak out by what I'm wearing. "Why are there holes in her shirt? Why would anyone pay to have a ripped up shirt?!" if you haevn't noticed, I don't keep styles for long F.Y.I. I had the mini shorts and cowboy boots, literally every girl I saw after a couple weeks had that on. It's NICE being different, being your OWN person. Don't COPY ME? Maybe then I won't friggen change so much! I am 17 years old. READ IT. 17!! I am GONNA change. I've made it a life choice to reinvent myself when big things happen in my life. That's what I do. That's MY thing. The dark hair, whatever, I'm tired of people saying 'OH IT'S A BOY THING.' NO. It's a MILEY thing.

I have reinvented myself countless times over the last few years. Early 2007, medium brown hair, all black clothes, all black nails, I was always in black. Not cause I was depressed, cause I loved it. Mid-2007, a big thing happened in my life, I loved maternity shirts, shiny make-up, blonde streaks, and colored converse. I was a preppy happy little thing. Late 2007, red tight jeans, black over-boots, and black and white tops. It was edgy to me, and I loved it. Early 2008, black hair, heavy make-up, casual clothes. Mid 2008, bangs, natural make up, sun dresses and black and white converse. Late 2008, Messy hair, tank tops, ripped jeans, converse and big purses with no make-up. Early 2009, casual dressing, light brown hair, bright blonde streaks, bangs, smiley, ect. Mid 2009, dark hair, loose clothing, I started thinking more and observing more than talking. Late 2009, one shoulder tops, spandex pants, dark long hair, loose thin tops. And early 2010, dark reddish hair, RIPPED CLOTHES, and whatever the hell else I want because it's ME. I don't determine my style by OTHER people. Like some people apparently do. I love my style, I love making my own style, I love BEING my own style. People NEED to back off. I'm not saying this asking for a 'YOUR RIGHT MILEY' in the comments, I'm saying it to EVERYONE. I'm TIRED of it.

For those saying, "She's SO skinny now! she's scrawny, she looks weak!" I've been SICK. I don't react well to illness. I have a heart condition, and a diabetic condition, illness hits me and I'm DOWN. I don't look the same. I do lose a lot of weight, I DO get pale, I DO start feeling and looking weak. That's NO ONE'S business BUT my own. I LOVE my body. I love showing it off. And yes, my style lately HAS been more revealing, it's been more edgy, it's been more rocker and a little more torn and sexy. That's MY thing. I didn't ask for permission OR approval. I like it, I don't caer who does or not?

And F.Y.I. NO boyfriend tells me how to dress, how to act, what to do, or how to do it. For all those people "ASSUMING" that ANYONE tells me how to dress, or how to act - you are TRULY sad if you think you know me. My boyfriend is in NO way, shape, or form, "controlling", "power hungry", or a "fame whore". And anyone who thinks so really needs a hobby. I think I would know. I'm not STUPID, I'm 17, and I think clearer than I garuntee almost any other 17 year old. I'm not stupid, I don't need kids, adults, fans, haters, I don't need ANYONE trying to tell me HOW to live my life, or WHO to live it with. "Why would your parents let you go off for New Years Eve with your boyfriend?!" because I'm GROWING UP?! Becasue my parents are more understanding?! Because my parents WANT me to grow, and mature, and learn things on my OWN. Because I don't learn lessons from stories of peoples experiences I am hungry o know WHAT life is about, and THAT'S what I'm learning. I don't need ANYONE'S permission, and/or approval and/or opinion on it. I'm a changed girl. I am SORRY I'm not 13 anymore but I'm NOT. I am GONNA change, I am GONNA grow in my own way. I don't KNOW where I'll be this time next year! I might be a bleach blonde in red lipstick living in Mexico somewhere, I DON'T KNOW. I go by what my heart tells me. I don't have my life planned out, I wanna live, learn and experience on my own. My parents love me very much and that's MY family, not yours, don't worry about MINE. Because of how THEY taught me, I'm travelling to different countries, I've known love, I've known being IN LOVE, I am living my dream, performing all around the world, doing all kinds of things and YOUR bashing a 17 year old over a computer screen. Real freaking brave guys. Real courageous. Your SO cool for sitting around all day trying to tear down a kid. Whoo wee. I wish I could be that cool, but I'm a good person.

People take so much crap for granted. I can't even hold my boyfriends hand without a million cameras going off, andpeople freaking out all over the world and me getting in trouble for it. I get in trouble for being HAPPY because people WON'T leave me alone! It's not all happy rainbows kids. I get in trouble from agents, and from publicists and everything else for what I do. But I do it anyway because it's MY life, and when I look back 10 years from now, I'd regret not holding those moments close. Everyone takes something as simple as holding hands like 'oh whatever, it's cute.' no. It's PARADISE for me. because I don't GET to do that often! So why are you sitting around bashing me? Go live your LIFE.

Anyway, I'm done trynig to explain it. I'm happier than I have ever been, no matter who "my boyfriend" may be, no matter what's going on between us, no matter what anyone says, and no matter what hollywood tries to do to us. I am HAPPY. And I'm staying that way. I'm not letting people take advantage of that. The internet is SUCH a dangerous place. I also wanted to add in this 'rage blog' --- I AM NOT YOUR KIDS PARENT. I UNDERSTAND that a rolemodel is suppose to teach your kid or whatever, and I LOVE being a role model, but for REAL kids. The ones who WILL make mistakes, the ones who look at me and say "I've been through that." "I'm going through that." not the ones that are expected to grow up happy, never upset, never changed. It's GONNA HAPPEN FOLKS. Kids GROW UP. And I'm GROWING UP. You can't keep me from that so I can babysit your kids and try and raise them to be stick figures. That's done. I am MYSELF, I LOVE my fans, no matter how young, no matter how old. And I understand no matter what I do it's gonna affect some portion but I love them ALL with ALL of my heart. I wouldn't do ANY of this without those kids, and those adults and EVERYONE. I wouldn't be doing half of this. I can't keep going on - basically I am beyond thankful for everyone, each and every indivudual person that supports me, but that doesn't make me a parent or perfect. I'm growing up. And I'm loving it.

I'm sorry to thsoe who don't like the changes I've made, but I will continue changing. It's not becuase of a boy, or because I'm rebelling from my parents, it's because I am changing. And I want people to see me, and know who I am. I want to be my own person, live my own experiences, and love whoever I want to love, and believe whatever I want to believe. I am a human.

I love you all so much and God bless you.
Miley

P.S. YAAYYYY I AM SO EXCITED FOR TOMORROW!!!!

R.I.P. my "vacation"... I've enjoyed every second of you, "mate". Living, loving, laughing. Being myself, and being treated like a normal person by some of the sweetest people in one of the sweetest places on earth. I cannot wait to visit again, and I cannot wait to show off my new self to hollywood, and show that no matter how corrupted a city and the people in it may be, I can shine, and I can be my true self, and I can be truly happy. And I can be different. I am excited for 2010. The Year Of No Fear. No kidding. I can't wait. =]

My best friend Demi said, 'Oh she's just being Miley.'

So, we're really excited ( we, being me and Demi) because of quite a few things. One, we're both in the south right this second, this will change probably tomorrow or sometime following very soon after. Both of our bestie Nick J had his FIRST show of his Nick Jonas & The Administration tour today YAAYYYY!!! We're so proud of him and love him with our whole haerts, we're supporting and I know he's super stoked, and we are too. We can't wait. His album also DROPPEd today, so everyone should go check it out! I got mine already, I'm in love with Who I Am, the video was honestly absolutely amazing and it's just so awesome and I cried it was amazing.
ANYWAY, we're both so excited for what the future holds and what 2010 will bring us. More Send it On work, more work and fun with eachother. we just can't wait.
To kick off this awesome year together we've both opened a twitter account. Like I've said in previous blogs (I'm sure) I had an account @wearebesties for me and Scott Cunha, we ran that and stuff while on tour. But he is a hair dresser and continues to work with others and we won't be able to see eachother anytime soon, and when we can we don't want to spend our time tweeting! So I texted Demi, and we decided we'd take it over TOGETHER. Which is awesome for the fans because ya'll can see both of us tweeting, without it being official and the media being all up in it, but also relate to us, two people you ALL know and hopefully understand better as the tweeting progresses. So follow twitter.com/wearebesties. REMEMBER, THE ONLY ACTUAL SITES I AM ON - twitter.com/theheartofmiley twitter.com/wearebesties tennesseesmile.blogspot.com mileyworld.com youtube.com/mileymandy. =] And Demi is twitter.com/ddlovato twitter.com/wearebesties!!! =]

LOVE YOU ALL, Xoxo.